His ex, I'm very jealous.

en_en2 — Sat, 19 Jul 2014 06:38:20 +0800

I understand everyone has a past...

His ex is his past and I'm his present.

He seldom mentioned about his ex and I never asked. But those few times when he mentioned then I will feel this sharp stab feeling right on the position where my heart is, and I felt warmed/goosebumps, this feeling is truly unpleasant.

I understand she is the past and I'm the present. I am in his life now and she's only the past, but I still can't help feeling the jealousy although I didn't throw tantrum to my bf when I feel jealous, it's not his fault duh, he already broke up and they never in touch anymore so what more do I want right.

They were together only for a year, then broke up and made a pact, together for a short period of time and things doesn't work still hence second time broken up and then that's it, he was single for a year or so then he met me.

I just felt he has done so many with her, she left so many marks in his life, they went to so many adventurous and romantic trips, took hundreds gigabytes of photos. Those photo album with directory of c/<her name>/you/are/sweet/ still in his computer. I know those are not just her photos, that includes so many trips photos and his nice shots too, I'd be very unreasonable if I told him to delete them, I won't definitely but I felt dreaded and crushed if I ever look at them, which I did not, I only made it as far as after the "sweet" folder, and tons of albums, open up a file named I Love You with her pic and caption love letters to him, closed it, because my volcano already boiling inside.

When we went on our first holiday, I thought we will take tons of pictures, but no, he's not keen and excited to take pictures like he was with her. When I wanted to take his pic, or ask if we can ask someone to help take our pic, he just said nah is ok is ok. We went to three cities in two countries in Europe and we only have like ... three? pictures of us.

The things I do with him, (supposed, I thought this is still our honeymoon period?), is, see him after work, eat out, went home, movie sometimes, eat at his parents' relax, he usually fall sleeps, things we do when we go out, shop for new furnitures for his new place, go to his new place, do some cleaning and tidy up, plan new place stuff, watch movie at home, he saying how stress he is and I gave my very best to make him happy. Well, do we call that as steady, stable, old wife old husband stage already....???? It's only been, four months the max omg!

When he mentioned about his ex, it's how that relationship had taken a toll on him, he had to put so much effort and it's damn tiring, his ex was so high maintenance both emotional, attention and material. I don't know whether to be happy I'm more like a "wife material", low maintenance, that involve most in the "real life" of his, instead of the so called unrealistic everyday go vacation, spend the last penny, no plan marry or kids thing. Although I love him so much that I can never imagine losing him, but I am still extremely sad when think he had done so much to her and with her, while taking me for granted, because I'm nice? Am low maintenance? Because I love him so much? I'm more matured? My EQ higher? When I'm stressed and sad, and depressed I would not express to him, I'm always his happy angel without him having to do anything to make me happy?

All in all, just how do I deal with this EX issue, as we go on with our relationship now.

Sorry if it's too long! I'm just sosososoosossooso I don't know what to say to describe my feeling, I just discovered the You Are Sweet directory!

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en_en2 — Wed, 02 Jul 2014 23:24:50 +0800

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