ma life back then

*-* — Sun, 12 Aug 2012 02:29:13 +0800

this thread meant to share my experience cz personally i feel it's not right.somehow people reacting like .ok.

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So here I am again with another story from another chapter of my life. First of all, sorry for my bad english, I’ll try my best telling my story here. But I would appreciate anyone reading this to not being prejudice or judging involved person as instant guilty. Just put that aside for a moment and be the judge of the situation here. Im telling this story purely because I keep thinking of other girls there, especially those who not make it home yet, those who force to do things contrary to their desires and those who benefit from such situation yet acting so noble in front of the society. I am actually seeking for a closure for bad things in my minds and hope to finally be in peace and stop wondering about the life I left behind with the people in it, if that possible.

So last year I got pregnant without wedlock and decided to stay at shelter house on my seventh month. I googled and from there I knew to prepare a thousand ringgit besides be ready to stay at least 40 days. So we have been in contact for a few months, had been told not to worry about the cost. I tried to discuss related matters before I signed up. Despite of never be sure about what awaits in front of me, I brace myself to find the courage as I feel this is the only chance for me to solve this matter without involving my family. Upon my arrival, I was required to sign a few forms, my questions left hanging without answers but I was told it will be discussed later, once the founder come. Considering I am new to the place and I got nowhere to go, I decided to stay there while waiting for the discussions to take place. I next asked to remove all clothing in front of staff and replaced it with uniforms provided. Altogether with basic needs like soap, toothbrushes, comb, towels, blankets, four pairs of undies, a sweatshirt and few more things they chose for me, I followed them through a gate as high as just below my shoulder and less than 15 minutes from my arrival I found myself was locked from the outside for the next 2 months. *That’s the end of my story, also an introduction for the next paragraph, the beginning might be varied to each of us, however since that we had faced pretty much equal experience.

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We wake up as early as 2.30 am in batches, usually with people whom u sharing the mattresses. It must be in batches so u wont run out of water from the tank and by subuh everyone would be ready. Each batch spent 15 min including of washing yesterday’s uniform. Once your batch done, u could all continue sleeping for a while, this time on the floor because u’ll have to keep the mattresses before bathing. Around 5.30 am the lock is open and we went to surau until 6.40 am, drying clothes outside, breakfast at 7.30 which mostly vary between two menus with a lot of anchovies in it as the cheap and easy calcium source that our babies need. We got to choose a cup of tea/coffee every morning compared to plain water during other meal times. 9.30 am we will be doing our daily duty. Went to surau at 10 am and will be involved in activity planned if theres any. We have lunch at 12.30 pm, went to surau until 2.15 something, doing activity or rest until 4 pm as we need to go to the surau, evening supper, doing daily duty, take a bath for 5 min each batch and heading to surau at 6.15 until after isyak prayer. We’ll have our dinner, doing activity lastly be ready for bed at 12.30 am. Thats pretty much our daily routines except for the weekend as weekly routines take place. Weekend always tiring for us but we generally like it because of the food. They always cooked chicken for the weekend. We often got visitors from the outside on weekend which always bring happiness because they will prepare chicken every single time of the visit, we like it also because of more vege in meals, chances to have sweet water and even fruits. Fruits definitely are listed among the big things, people goes crazy over fruits till they have to steal from u. Theres always people who’ll dig in your 1 foot square closet for foods, supplements and even pantiliners. Coudnt blame them though, as we are hungry people carrying our babies which are denied from nutrition we need. Not to mention once doctor visit (upon arrival to predict due date until reaching exact due) which might provide supplements. Luckily we are penniless to steal except for maximum RM 5 every two weeks which is granted for breads. Talking about breads, depends on your luck, in coupled you are allowed to went out the small gate for ‘babu’. Closely eyed by few staff.

what do u think so far.dowan spend time to post the whole story first.but it's not a proper place which left people traumatized.pity for those being there now.

updated 29/8
my friends and i, we'd like to report for the sake of girls over there n cz most of us were lied along the process of giving up our babies.i won my baby when she was 4 month old.is reporting them will help us future times cz we have different needs,some just want to have the picture,some want to meet them while some wish to win them back.we are afraid of the risk if we fail this,we will be punished like not getting the picture or not meeting them forever.

how to break up

*-* — Thu, 02 Aug 2012 06:29:13 +0800

hi..heres my boring story..last week i told him i want a better guy in my life..n i want him to change,for good..actually we are planning to settle down n get married this year but parents won't allow us because he's jobless due to his commitment to small family business till end of this year..so basically we are getting married by next year..the prob is,this r/s aren't so clean..theres sex n drug involved..but he's one year drug n sex clean..i came from a fairly educated n pious b/g..n he's backgoround like a bit upper than mat rempit..myb..so it's hard for him to change considering the people hes mingle around..and like a typical muslim family,im hoping for him to be my guide to set a good example which he seems to success until lately..this puasa month dia buat perangai craving for sex..which i objected..besides hes having difficult time to fast..n need my full support to help him thru..so when these happened i tot there's no chance for him being a person i wish him to be..i gave him too many chances already for different reasons along tis r/s,in the name of love..but i can't lie deep down in my heart..i want a good husband for a marriage which i believes will encourage an obligated family one day..i wondered if i let him go,will i possibly get my dream husband,or hes my only chance..hes not that bad as a husband afterall he'll make a good house-husband..we are both muslims..never married,with a child..n don't want to explain the child's part..she's my life..

tebuan ATTACK

*-* — Sun, 29 Jul 2012 11:21:20 +0800

the night before last night my dad go on top of the roof to remove sarang tebuan..he made and prepared own equipment for that purpose,but basically he made tebuan go pening first by spraying ridsect onli..so yesterday everyone except dad went out n realize a group of tebuan flying on top of roof..just now wake up got tebuan at lampu and langsir also..what shud do..onli me n dad at home n he will sleep until petang because puasa..im ekceli afraid of the situation in a bigger frame cos problem never whole-ly solve..onli remove sarang n half tebuan dead but the survival keep coming back..help

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now that tebuan look very calm,not flying around anymore,shud i kill it now,or wait for mom come back home,or wait for dad wake up before asar..i dont like killing living things using own hand..but if a must kill now,i will try kill by using badminton reket like u pipel suggest..

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