In the process of Moving On

andrewcnk — Tue, 18 Feb 2014 20:55:28 +0800

Everybody is writing their story here, makes me wanna write mine >.<

Know this girl since 2004, at that time, she is like standard 6? lol i am like form 2. (dont say i tipu budak kecil ha XD)

Know her through playing Gunbound, darn, of all place, i know this girl through there from Ipoh. I thought, perhaps its faith. I am from Penang by the way. (I know its LDR, gazillion species said wont work)

Then i ask her number, she gave hers, i gave mine. We talk and talk and talk almost every day, every hour and going on to every years.

Then when she came to penang, to her cousin house, and to Queensbay Mall/ Gurney Plaza, i always go when she told me shes going, and she wont want to meet me in person that time. Its like stalker stalking a prey, that feeling rather exciting and anxious i must say XD.

Then fast forward to 2009, we play a game, called "Q&A", basically you ask anything, the other person answer any. In the question, she gave me couple of hint that she likes me. ( She told me 1 years later) . I dont get it, fool i know.

Then i guess slowly, you would fall for a girl, or she falls to me. One night, before we slept. Some how, i tell her how i felt to her. Some rather long winded messages (took 3 messages). Happily, she felt the same too, i was happy as a well whatever. Then we fall asleep.

Silly me, i forgotten to ask 1 thing, "can you be my girlfriend?" She ask me the next day, "you forgotten to ask something ya know?"
Was looking back the message, and realize. So i type the entire thing and added the last sentence, she said YES.

So in few years time, i bring her to penang, go lots of places, eat and tried different thing. Then to kl, let her tried all new and exciting stuff.

Of course, we had quarrel and fight, she is the one who feel she is always the right one, most of the time, i will tolerate, certain time i will stand with my thought, and thats the fight got bigger and colder. Then will be alright couple days back. She asked for breakup many times too, then will say i just say only.

Then right after she finish her diploma, she gone working. Then theres our relationship going backward. We had less time talk and chat, i am pursuing my studies, part time working.

Till last year 2013, October 20, Sunday, 5 days before her birthday. She asked for breakup,(reason, stress from work) i was devastated. She asked to be friends, will still care and love me whatever, then say i will find a better one)

On the 25th, i drove down to ipoh to find her, i cant control myself but tears, and i pass her the present i prepared 6 months earlier. She said, give me some time.

November 2, i went down find her again, this time she is pissed, i came without telling her. She scolded me, saying is stressed from work. just give abit more time, then ask to cancel the sub line number of hers.

She changed her number, but didnt tell me. Luckily, instagram have this private photo messaging thing, i ask her through there.

She gave, i said all sort of thing, even beg, she wont take any of it. I ask dont you feel waste after so long, you give up? she quiet . I ask when you said you need time, do you mean it? she said no.

My heart totally broken, now i understand hows a broken heart feel. you literally could hear your heart broke to pieces.

Then during chinese new year, i bought a hamper, intended to give it to her mother for all these year taking care of me.

Shes there, shes pissed again.

Then i whatsapp her, she blocked, find her through instagram. then she replied and warn me not to go her place anymore.

My heart, died.

Well thats my story, good thing is, i talk to my friends, close/not close. but my heart till now, is empty.

10 years, 4 years relationship, habis, Ka Pssh!

Frankly, i still wanted to save it, i just feel its a waste.

Thank you for your time.

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In the process of Moving On