What is exactly happening to me?

nwpp0506 — Sat, 27 Nov 2010 01:23:52 +0800

Hi all,

I have found myself rolling into a dilemma and for months I have not get over it yet. I need some help here. Other than time, what else could be the cure and need some opinion whether the feeling is just because I'm used to person or is it love. Thank you in advance.

The story goes like this:

Me and my ex were together for 2 1/2 years. We met in univ and we fell for each other in a night and got together after 4 days of knowing each other. To be honest, for so many years, i had nv felt like this. The feeling was so right and it is as if his ur soulmate. We went through those univ life of our with companionship from each other. We stayed together. Of course there were sweet n bitter, but all went well.

However, during the coming end of 2nd last semester, somebody actually told me that my ex was having sth on with a junior gal that I knew and it happened few months back, however their relationship ended after a month or two. I was of cos i furious, but i calmed myself to confront the lady and she confessed that it was my ex who approach her with intention. My ex is not a tall handsome guy, but short. It's pretty weird that he actually attracts girls easily. He's not a sweet talker too, in fact, a log. Funny huh? Yeah, that y i fell for him b4.

Coming back. Again, I calmed myself way home to confront him. I did not want to pull up a fight or argument so I was js questioning him whether he has been unfaithful to me. I was hoping that he would admit, and asked for forgiveness. But instead he denied until the very end of the moment where i had to bring out the girl's name and how far had they gone. How far had they gone? He brought the gal home while I wasnt but both denied on the further expected part of the story. Both admit the furthest they went was my ex massages the girl's legs. Geezz..How come i nv get those treatment??

Finally when he admitted his unfaithfulness, I packed and moved out. He begged. I told myself to smile my way out n no looking back. I didnt cry until a few days later when I drunk myself of the hook. Finally~

After a few weeks breaks, I found myself having the toughest time to digest and I forgave him when last semester started, I told myself to give him another chance to prove his vow of faithfulness but after 6 months of struggle i gave up.

It has been 4 months since we broke up. N now im starting the feel the suffocation in me. I find my self starting to miss him more n more. I even have the feeling of trying to get back together. But there is another energy in me that is telling me dont (i think is my consciousness) but my hand started to sms and ask him his condition. I even hinted if we have further chances but in return he said he needs some breaks for some time.

Can anyone tell me is my now is just because im lonely and used to his existence or is it I still love him? But i still have a guard for him because of the previous incident. Am I to continue to try get him back or shall i move on n forget abt him?

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