Meruchan

kraziivan23 — Thu, 17 Oct 2013 18:49:22 +0800

So meruchan I heard you got problem with your credit card at starbucks? Double bill?
Mari come out and kopi with me

Someone summon her out

Msn Messenger

kraziivan23 — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 23:33:08 +0800

On MSN, i know that when i blocked someone, they wont able to see my online nor be able to message me.

But can i still see that person status being online even after i blocked them?

Trace IP address thru MSN Messenger

kraziivan23 — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 21:14:10 +0800

Hi,

i need help on how to trace IP address of someone thru msn messenger

cuz i believe someone is posing as a friend of mine on msn.

im pretty sure i know who is the poser but i just wanna confirm.

the poser should be in malaysia

while my friend (the real owner of the account) is in australia

Story of my life

kraziivan23 — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 22:59:26 +0800

This is gonna be a very long story so if you're the type that falls asleep easily, this story is not suitable for you. The reason i write from the start till now is so that you could get all the necessary info you would need before giving me any advices.

For your references:

ZZZ - the girl i liked

YYY- the guy she is in relationship now

I have known this girl for 4 years since 2005. (lets called her ZZZ) So at first when i met her, i didnt have much feelings for her or anything. After a year which is 2006, i get to know ZZZ more and naturally, i started to develop feelings for her. But at the moment, i lacked self-confidence (you would when you are 110kg obese male who have tough times finding clothes in shops and cant even look into the mirror) and i felt like im not "presentable" when im standing next to her.

After joining a gym & working out & managed to lose 40 kg in 8 months, i'm confident about myself, i felt i have a chance to be with ZZZ. So by the end of 2006, we went together a couple of times (i dont know if these are "dates"). After awhile, i told her how i feel about her & asked her if she wanna be in a relationship with me. She said no but didnt tell me why (few years later, she later told me the reason she said no was that because she felt she didnt know me well enough). When she said no, i wasnt surprised cuz at the moment she was getting ready to be transfered to Australia for studies.

So during 2007, we still keep in touch with each other, chatting on MSN, the usual stuff.

Fast forward to 2008, i too transfered to Australia for studies and went to the same uni with her. We would bump each other at times on campus & chat with each other & hang out a couple of times.

Few months ago, she & a bunch of friends went for a road trip. After the road trip, i was told by a friend of mine that she is currently seeing a guy whom she was with for the road trip. Apparently that guy asked her to be his girlfriend during the trip.

So like couple of days after the end of her road trip, she asked me out to catch a movie & dinner with her cuz its been awhile since we seen each other.

While we at dinner, i notice there's a hickey mark on her neck but i dont wanna ask her what happened. After a couple of minutes into dinner, she tells me that she is currently seeing a guy and that guy asked her to be his gf. but she didnt say yes to him and she said she doesnt really like him plus she only known him for about 8-10 months and she doesnt really like him.

But the problem is that guy sort of announce to everyone on his facebook that she is in a relationship with him when in fact she didnt even say yes. Not only that, ZZZ kept following up her actions. For example, if that guy asked her out, she will say yes. She doesnt know how to reject him or say no.

She asked me what should she do? I told her that if she doesnt like him ,then she just dump him. But she is the type of girl that is shy and she doesnt know what to do. She doesnt wanna perceived as a slut or a girl who messes with guys around if she dumps him so early, you know what i mean.

She also said that when she told the guy that she is gonna go out with me for a dinner, that guy told her not to go out with me. She also revealed that the guy made a hickey on her neck, just to show it to me.

Like i said, i told her that if she doesnt wanna be with him, she should just tell the truth to that guy (lets called him YYY). She said she most probably would do that.

After a week or two later, not only she didnt dump him, they are still together and she goes to his place even more often (i got this info from her housemate, im pretty close with her housemate). At that moment, i felt really let down & disappointed, i was like super emo at that moment. But i try my very best not to let that bother me cuz at that moment, i have an exam coming up and i really need to study to pass that subject in order to graduate.

During the exam, all i could think was her & her being with that other guy. That really affected me & eventually i failed that subject so i couldnt graduate after all. Couple of days later, when i was checking my facebook, i saw a pic update of her in her profile. It's a pic of her holding the other guy hands.

Right at that moment, i just lost my mind, i yelled out so loud in anger and i just smashed my knuckles to the wall so hard that my knuckles was bleeding .After that, i just went straight to bathroom & take a shower. The water from the shower head was flowing down and just washing away my bloody hand & tears from my eyes for the next 10-15 minutes. Straight after shower, i just went to bed & cried myself to sleep.

Few days later, it's friends graduation ceremony (me & ZZZ didnt graduate yet at that time). So i went to the graduation ceremony to celebrate my friends graduation. ZZZ was there as well but YYY wasnt there cuz i know he doesnt wanna bump into me. At the ceremony, i had some champagne & beer, but i know im not drunk yet and i still well aware of what im saying or doing. When I & ZZZ managed to get some time alone, i told her that i loved her. I told her that previously i liked her, but somehow when she was taken away from me, i appreciate her even more & i just realized that i love her. All she could said at that moment that she is sorry and had this "what do you want me to do" kinda look on her.

I told her to do what she think is the correct thing. At that moment, i actually wanted to tell her that sorry is not the answer i want but of course me being the nice guy, i just shut my mouth & bottled it in me.

Few days later(20-12-2008), i have to leave Australia & go back to KL (ZZZ is still in Australia cuz she was taking summer semester at that moment) . I wrote a letter & gave the letter & a Xmas gift to her housemate so she can give it to ZZZ right after i leave.

The letter is about what happened & how i felt right after i found out that she is seeing a guy right up till the day i left Australia to go back to KL.

21-12-2008, when i logged onto MSN that evening, she sent me a message. She said she read the letter and she apologized to me for hurting my feelings. Again, sorry is not the answer i was looking for but me being a nice guy , i said its not her fault & she shouldnt apologize. She also said she likes the gift.(The gift was a Leona Lewis CD cuz i know she loves Leona Lewis & she doesnt have her CD yet).

On New Year Eve 31-12-2008, i called her to wish her happy new year & chatted. Just by hearing her voice i know she was having some problems. Me being a nice guy AGAIN , i told her that if she has problems & wanna talk about it, im there for her.

Over the next couple of days until today (15-1-2009), she wrote some stuff on her blog. ZZZ wrote about the problems she having with YYY. Problems like how she knows she is not perfect but YYY kept trying to change her to someone she is not. Problems like how YYY kept comparing ZZZ to YYY's friend GF. How she is unhappy being with YYY & stuff like that.

Always couple of hours later after she post those things on her blog, she removed them. But i always managed to read them first before she removes them.

I know that she doesnt tell me bout her problems cuz it involves YYY and she doesnt want to hurt my feelings. But again me , the nice guy , i wanna hear her problems so i could help her out but i ended didnt wanna say anything.

Right now, im really disappointed with her (in fact, a lil pissed off) for choosing to be with a guy whom she barely knows, a guy who doesnt even know what her fav food, clothes, music or type of movie she like to watch and not being with me, who knows her for 4 bloody years, who knows her fav food, clothes, music, movies & even go to the gym just so that i look "presentable" when i stand next to her.

I like her for the way she is. Whenever i see her eyes, i could feel warmth in me. I feel comfortable being next to her. With her, i could be myself and not be pretending to be someone else.

I didnt even told ZZZ that i failed my exams & i have to go back to Australia in March to repeat my subject for another semester.

I have told all my friends bout my situation and ALL OF THEM told me to just forget bout her & move on. I'm like i dont wanna be with anyone else except ZZZ for now. I already waited for 3 f****** years, i think i could i wait for another couple of months but im not that strong so i dont know how long i could last.

So what do you guys think i should do???

Couple of days ago, it was exactly 4 years since i first saw her in my entire lifetime.

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