My job situation currently makes me so depressed

beliau4life — Fri, 19 Jun 2020 10:07:59 +0800

Sometimes I feel like I'm the unluckiest person in the world. Yeah, I know I'm not. There's plenty out there that don't even have a job. But hear me out. This is more a rant than an advice seeking post.

So I graduated from Uitm with a bachelor's degree in accounting with 2.58 cgpa. I know it sucks, and i mentioned it because it will be relevant later. My 1st job was with a local audit firm and I spent 3 years there. I had a good time there and gained so much experience. I feel I am ready to move on to a higher paying job, so I did.

My 2nd job was with a local construction company. They had a pretty nice resume, project-wise. I had fun here too, making new friends and shouldering new responsibilities. But I'm there for only 7 months. There's a job vacancy at one of the government agencies, I applied, went for an interview, and got the job. This is my dream job and I was so ecstatic when I got it. I feel bad leaving the company but excited to work as a government officer. TBH, I don't think I can get it since my cgpa is so low. I would like to note that this post is contract based and subject to renewal every year. It doesn't matter, was what I'm thinking at the time, as long as I can get in, perform to the best of my abilities, there's no reason for them not to absorb me as permanent staff, right?

How wrong am I. For a time, things are looking up. I REALLY enjoyed this job, it's right in my alley, and not to brag, I am good at it. Then I got married when I'm there. My wife is also a government officer. Then we look for our first home. That's when I know that a contract based government officer can't be approved for a housing loan. So I said okay, let's just wait for a few years until I can be absorbed into permanent staff. I was there for 3 years, entering my 4th. Twice, the agency held an interview for a permanent position. The vacancies also opened to the public so basically we have to compete against outside graduates as well as other contract based officers within the agency itself. So I'm guessing, I am already inside here, they must prioritize us since they can save on time and cost to train new officers, right?

Again, I am wrong. I applied both times, didn't even make the cut for the interview. Our branch assistant director, a very nice guy, asked his contact at the HQ who works with HR. The reason given, my cgpa was too low. The minimum is 2.7. Okay, so the AD questioned why in the first place they hired me as contract officer, knowing full well my cgpa was lower than 2.7. The answer was at the time there's no minimum requirement. From there, I know there's no future for me here. In my 4th year there, I tender my resignation.

My boss at the 2nd company still keeps in touch with me. He always asked me jokingly, come back and join us here la, I'll match your salary there plus RM1 (but I know deep down he's serious, except the RM1 part lol). So when I told him about my situation, he gladly took me back. He gave me the responsibility to manage the account department. He matched my salary plus RM300, not that bad. The job may not be as exciting, but it paid well and after a few months my application for a housing loan was approved and I purchased my 1st home. I thought things would finally be looking up.

I was wrong, yet again. Initially, business was good, a lot of projects coming in and more in the pipelines. Then, the owner of the company (my boss is a director, but the owner is a big boss and who actually runs the company) decides to invest in new ventures. This is a construction company whose main sources of revenue are from government contracts and become sub-contractor to big clients. Big Boss decided to invest in property development and guess what, it failed miserably. Coupled with some loss-making projects and failed developments, the company fell into hard times. Retrenchment and pay-cuts. My salary got cut by 33%. It's still okay, I think since I am prudent with my spending and have some savings. Then the salary payment started to delay. The longest was 2 weeks. I am aware of the cash flow situation every month and warned my boss, he only said I know, but there's nothing we can do.

So I tell my boss, if this continues I might start looking for a new job. Surprisingly, he answered that he actually felt bad asking me to come back and the company doing badly soon after. He gave me the permission to resign but asked for my favour to help me as much as I could before I left. So January 2020 I give my 3-months notice, my last day of working would be 31 March.

I managed to get a job which is okay with me to start work in April. But as we all know, on 18 March MCO happened. The new place informs me due to this they will delay my start work date until after MCO is lifted. So instead of April, I only start work on May 11, where MCO is eased up and the economy can start opening. So I'll be handling the account department, similar to my last job. The only difference was in my last company I had 4 accounting staff, here I got 2. No big deal, I can make it work.

Again, I was wrong again. The 2 ladies I'm working with, one is okay. But the other one, I don't know how to put it in here without cursing. Basically, it's a very toxic environment. Since I'm new there and I'm still figuring out their system and SOPs, of course I asked her a lot since she's the more senior accounting staff. I got a lot of eye rolls, exasperated sighs, looks of annoyance and she didn't even hide it. Once, she took some documents when I'm not at my place and when I asked about it she said she didn't know. I got reprimanded by my boss for being "careless". Then the next day she just put the documents on my table without looking at me at all, not to mention saying sorry.

The nice admin lady whatsapp me one day saying, I don't know what the problem with you two but she's been complaining about you a lot. One of her complaints is that why need to pay that guy that much money when I'm still the one who does all the work here. The admin lady said better you talk to her and sort this out. Well, I'm not a confrontational person and looking at this lady, I don't think anything good will come out of just talking. There are many more instances that I don't want to type since typing it would anger me lol.

As I'm typing this I am also typing my resignation letter. I think I can't work here with this lady. But here's the thing, I'm very unlucky with my career so far and it really makes me feel depressed. I'm 35, at this age I should have a steady job already. Looking at my buddies also depressed me since all of them got a steady career. I'm thinking of freelancing for the time being, already asked around if they need their account and taxes done. I'm building my base and if it goes well, I'm thinking of opening my own firm in the future. Hopefully. If not I can just apply to become a grab driver or food rider.

Thanks for reading my wall of texts lol.

TLDR: I'm never lucky with my job.

EA Buys Euphoria?

beliau4life — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 13:41:52 +0800

I don't know if this has been posted but here's the link.

For those who doesn't know, NaturalMotion is the developer that makes the Euphoria engine used in GTA IV..and if u play this game, u will notice how nice Euphoria engine works..seriously EA, what else u want to buy? EA is probably still frustrated over Take 2's refusal to sell them the company, so what better way to get back at them than buy the rights to the technology that created GTA IV..

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beliau4life — Sun, 09 Mar 2008 21:00:37 +0800

Hi everyone, this is the 1st time I post here. I've been looking for game forum where I can share my interest and opinion between me and fellow Malaysians as all game forum where I have posted b4 was all US and European based website.

On to the topic, I just purchased my 360 back in December. The problem is I just cannot afford it anymore to buy the game bcoz it was too damn expensive (rm130+)..and there are many game out there that I want to buy..currently I have 22 games in my 360 xollection, and imagined that..130 x 22..so I am thinking to mod my 360, with the advise of my friend, to play pirated disc..is that a great idea or what? Any opinions and suggestions will be appreciated..thank you in advance..

And btw, does anyone in this forum have a modded 360? What're the drawbacks though?

And sorry if this posted in the wrong section. If this thread do wrongly posted please mod move it to the right place.

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