What do guys think I should do?

AhBoiz — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 11:24:50 +0800

Hi all Ive been reading cupids corner for a while but never really posted anything.

Anyways this is my story because I cant keep it in anymore. My body starting to shut down. Im getting sick and feel like puking. Yesterday night I got smashed because i couldn't take the constant pain in my heart.

Here it goes.

Little background about her, her parents are divorced and she lives with her mom and her mom evil BF and her little brother. Her family is very scattered and fighting and her dad is working in HK. because of her family problems she has a few issues and stuff.

I know this girl for 4 years and I took 2 years to chase her and the other 2 years we were together. We were so happy and in love during our 2 years, we went on holiday together we talked about everything and we knew we were meant to be. You could say that we finally found each other. I would buy her gifts and surprise her and stuff sometimes or make extra trip to drop present at her house.

But than 1 week before I left to Melbourne. I started to become very intolerant of her attitude and stuff. For example, if she late/wasting time I would just snap at her and sometimes when were talking I would be cold and silent when I dont like something she said. I think I was fed up with her attitude. Anyways she would do anything for me and she always stick up for me no matter what. Than came the day I left, I was at the airport and she called me all happy telling me she got into the uni she wanted in Melbourne and I just wasnt enthusiastic even though months before I was so worried and I prayed every night that we will be together in Melbourne.

after a week in melbourne, my parents were fighting nonstop and i could see that my mom and dad had some similarities to me and my gf. we were always fighting and that she is overemotional and im very silent and i keep things in. So than I got scared and I didnt want to make a mistake and end up like my parents so I dumped her over the phone. very brief and heartless I would say.

few days later my dad explained something to me about my mom because i didnt understand how he could put up with her nonstop. I understand that you have too but there is a limit of course. Anyways my dad told me something like, My mom is over emotional and stuff because of her past(she had similar past like my gf) and that even though they dont mean to be over emotional and fight they cant help it because of how things were in the past. Maybe she doesnt love me how I want her too but she still loves me with all her heart and would do anything. Me as the more understanding and logical one should take time and help and understand theyre situation. My dad said maybe they will never change how you want them too but they love you and they keep trying. thats what counts..

After my dad told me all that I realize I messed up big time. I was selfish and an idiot. and i lost the girl of my dreams. My problem was im so emotionless and silent and she isnt. and I lost her..i never talked to her about it..im so dumb and sad..and feel hopeless....

anyways back in KL, she apparently been hooking up with different guys and according to her friends i hurt her big time and i guess shes trying to get over me..it hurts me so much to know that another guy/guys have touched her but she doesnt know i know whats been doing so i keep quiet because it is all my fault that this started.

today i explained everything to her and shes leaving to melbourne in a day. I beg her and trying to get her back..she told me that she doesnt believe in us anymore because i would just screw her over again and if i wanted her i would need to do everything to fix my mess but..i dont know what to do..shes still so cold to me and its all my fault..

does she still love me? does she still want us together?

What should i do? should i keeep chasing her because what if shes so hurt and destroyed that she just wants to jump on anyguy that will give her care and attention in her uni? should i move on.. or what?? im so lost...sighh

i cant stand getting smashed again and this pain in my chest..it kills me..this all my fault..i messed up..i dont want anyone but her..i believe its an obstacle that we need to get through..were meant to be..i cant sleep..im getting sick..im getting angry at myself and doing stupid things..

advice? please..dont just leave me one or two liners..try and explain..

im sorry i messed up her heart and our relationship but im trying to get her back..

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AhBoiz — Mon, 23 Jul 2007 20:31:46 +0800

Hi guys i would like to ask your advice on which camera to get because i know that the D80 has the majority of the D200 specs but is the D200 worth it than?D80?

Also whats the best price now for both of the models body only.

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