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Selfish collegues

Ggg123ggg — Thu, 09 Sep 2021 12:53:42 +0800

Should you continue to help your colleagues if they are being selfish?

E.g. they know certain info but keep for themselves.

I know the corporate world is cruel, but for me, if everyone can success in a team, it shows a good image to the management and all get the bonus deserved, win-win situation.

To stay or leave

Ggg123ggg — Tue, 04 May 2021 17:41:53 +0800

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Scopophobia

Ggg123ggg — Mon, 08 Mar 2021 13:06:09 +0800

I have Scopophobia, a fear of being stared at by other people.

It starts from a traumatic event that happened when I was studied in primary school. My teacher actually scold me and swear to kill me in front of the class when I can't answer a math question on blackboard. Since then, I will feel scared and shake whenever a situation where someone is focus on me such as presentation, cutting hair, take photos/ selfie or even passing a drinks. The shaking is uncontrollable and it's not just hand but whole body. Hence, I have always laughed or asked by people, which most of the time, I can only reflect with an awkward smile.

However, I'm yet to have symptom like some severed patients whom feel like being started all the time. I don't have problem in social and making friends, just being shy abit all the while. I don't visit the doctor too as I tried to practice self mastery.

The reason of this post is to create awareness of public on this mental illness and we are defintely not weirdo as our brain is just constantly generate the feeling of fear and it's hard to control. Thanks for reading to my sharing.

Home based facial @ Cheras area

Ggg123ggg — Wed, 16 Dec 2020 10:12:41 +0800

Hi all, as mentioned in topic. I would like to start a part time business of home based facial at the Cheras area. Just to survey, how many of you will come if my proposal is as below. Thanks.

Place: Convenient. Near to public transport
Price: RM68
Package: Cleansing (no extraction), exfoliation, clay face mask, cleansing, moisturizer and sunscreen.
Products used: Clinical (not found in malls. Self tested and they're good)
Targeted customers: individuals with low to medium range income who tired of work and have no time to pamper themselves
Business time: Weekdays (8pm to 10pm), weekends (10am to 10pm)
Duration per treatment: 30mins to 45mins

Nervous breakdown due to work issue

Ggg123ggg — Fri, 06 Nov 2020 00:24:43 +0800

I know I have opened some other threats that talking about the same issue again and again, but I just can't hold myself anymore with this job.

My boss is assuming me to liaise with all the HODs, which most of the time I get bang to the wall. I tried to answer some email queries from other colleagues myself (tried to be independent), but on the next day, my boss will ask me to explain to her why am I answering like that, instead of giving me feedback on more proper way of replying, if any. She will just send a bunch of documents and ask me to give comments by next two days, which I have no experience in handling them at all. At the end I bring back laptop and work until midnight. It likes asking me who just drive for 6 months to compete with Michael Schumacher.

I feel my mental is seriously drained. Today I just choose to shut down my laptop and sleep even before end of working hour after scolding by her. For first time, I can't believe I'm doing this, as I'm usually a responsible person in workplace. I sleep for 6-7 hours everyday, but I still have dark eye circle on my face. I become more and more negative, tend to sit at the bus stop alone at middle of night, just to watch car passing by. Worse, recently, I always release stress through spending money and eating sweet things, which make me spend more although with higher salary and I have gained 2 to 3kg since I start this job.

The same issue happened almost everyday, I don't know what I'm doing > follow instructions > get shoot by other team > don't hope for help, get shit done or else exceed deadline.

I tried to look for new job but no news at all. To the extend I'm thinking to just bare with a huge pay cut and join other company as an intern in order to get out of this hell.

God, please give me strength to overcome all this... Tomorrow is another day

Feel loss on my job

Ggg123ggg — Thu, 22 Oct 2020 09:52:46 +0800

My job is a mix of the nature of ops risk, compliance and auditor. At most of the time, I don't know what am I doing. Usually I just get a brief answer after asking and I'm still in doubt. I have no confident in what I'm doing, as I have to cover my own backside when something goes wrong. My boss is not supportive (sometime give wrong direction) and the only one experienced staff is too busy to teach (I have never receive a formal guidance from first day I join). As result, my work progress become slow and my boss has feedback to me few times. I feel very sad as in my old place, I managed to work independently and cover my colleagues who on long leave by just 3 months of working. I wish to leave the job as it indirectly influences my lifestyle and confidence. However, my previous job skill is niche and only available for limited industries.

Ok questions. Is anyone from Citi CTSM? How is the working environment and culture? Or if there any opening relating to KYC in your current company? Thanks.

Issue on workplace as newbie

Ggg123ggg — Tue, 13 Oct 2020 12:55:25 +0800

Just to express my frustration on work. I just started a new job one month ago. I can't sleep for few Sunday already because of some issues faced. and I feel like myself dragging to work every morning like zombie. Sometime I don't even know what I did wrong. Here's the situation:

14 sep - Audit send email say will come on Oct & Nov for review. Boss ask me to book for rooms for two months
21 sep - Managed to book the rooms. Boss just back from study leave and question me why I book the rooms late
1 Oct - No sound from audit. Sent an email to ask for exact date coming. No reply.
13 Oct - Today only reply with memo. Boss ask to check whether they are sit in the rooms ady or not with a frustrated tone and face.

For me, why I have to care for when the auditor will come? But my boss reaction is like as I didnt do my job on following up. Most of the time, they just send forward email to me and ask me to attend without any guidance. Tbh, I did 80% of my work based on my own understanding and refer to historical docs. I do reflect this to my boss, but a bit relunctant now as in fact she herself also have this prob. She always told me that she just work since June, but she put a very high expectation to me as AM only, assumed me to know everything and take over some of her jobs. I'm totally 90% fresh to this role. I left my previous job for this role bcoz of higher pay and I don't want to work overtime (as agreed in interview). But now, my boss ask me to bring laptop back and work. Actually, sometime I do feel she have some prejudice on me (her tone is abit different when talk to me). Just in the morning, she say I printed a doc with wordings too small for she to sign, she say: Do you think ppl can see what in the doc? But when I ask my other team member, she say she did like me all the time and no prob previously. At last, I amend for a bigger font size for her.

I wish to leave but my previous role is abit niche in term of knowledge. Not much hiring in the market. Feel regret and stucked here. I'm a super employee in my ex company, but always being criticized here made me lost confidence. I feel so useless to the team and dilemma on my career prospects. I have experience in coaching and guiding ppl before in my previous no jobs, and I don't feel it's the correct way here. Apologies for bad grammar and structure as I'm writing this with a messy mind now on lunch time.

Just start work but feel to resign

Ggg123ggg — Tue, 08 Sep 2020 17:14:26 +0800

Today is my 2nd day, but I'm not sure to resign or not.

I'm joining into a new field but there is no guiding or mentoring at all. The HOD does assigned another staff to guide me on cases, but after that, the staff just says don't know where to start and throw me aside. I tried to self learning, I can understand theory only but not practical. I tried to ask for job but always get the answer to do later. I don't know what should I do or how do I start as there is no workflow.

On my first day, nobody is going out lunch with me. They just disappear on time. The whole department is super quiet, they don't talk at all, and on first day, I already see the frustration of existing staff on certain procedures. Missed my ex company where all the colleagues are closed to each other and when I'm being helpful in the dept. Although the workload is a lot (this is one of the reasons why I left), but at least I know what I should do for the day with proper goal and direction.

Feel like I'm having a culture shock here. I feel difficult to adapt into this new environment. If I resign now, maybe my good name will be affected since the field is small.

Dilemma on job

Ggg123ggg — Wed, 24 Jun 2020 12:55:22 +0800

I have tender my resignation and serving notice now. My boss tried to counter offer me but i didn't accept it as she offered the same package and I'm thinking to leave for a better job prospect.

Before I resign, I knew my "to be future boss" who interviewed me is transferring to another department, which mean I will be working under someone who never saw before. I'm ready to work hard for the 6 months probation.

However, I receive calls from her twice, ask me to reconsider on the offer. I feel like she tries to advise me to not accept the offer. She says that she will accept the counter offer of she is me. I asked whether it's because the environment is toxic (because that's is my main concern, I can't stand with toxic environment). She answer no but it's all about work only. For me, I can accept heavy work load as long as the work is completable. Like my current job, I have 3 small mountains on my table which some cases are outstanding since last year because of pending docs.

Now I'm worried, it's a sign that I shouldn't take the job at first? Am I too emotional in making decision earlier? But there is no u turn for me already as I have received the official termination letter from HR. And my boss has told the whole department that I'm leaving.

Patients have to wait outside the building

Ggg123ggg — Thu, 04 Jun 2020 09:50:11 +0800

I went to Wisma Boustead for some medical check up. I saw a lot of people including old folks are waiting for their turn to the clinic at registration point outside of building. Plus they have to wait for a people to go out for another to in. End up I waited for 20min for one person to enter (if Infront me got 4 people, it is almost 1 hour!!!). And the clinic is open from 9-11am only and you have to wait for afternoon section after this.

I understand the situation of covid-19. But what if someone is sick and have to wait under the hot weather...

Should I take this job or not

Ggg123ggg — Mon, 25 May 2020 12:06:37 +0800

I interviewed for a job before MCO and HR just got the approval recently. I'm going to a medical check up and they will issue me an offer letter after this. Position and salary wise is good as there is increment on both.

But recently, my supposed to be future boss called me and said she is going to leave the company and serving notice. Which means if I join the job, I will be worked under a newly hired boss which I never met before. Her consent is that whether I can pass my 6 months probation, which is also what I worried about as this year economy is employers choose you. Further, the job scope is abit different from what I'm doing now.

Touch wood, if i resigned, take this job and lossing it again, I think it's difficult for me to find a new job again this year. I have some savings but also with commitments such as parents money, rental, car loan etc.

Should I grab or shouldn't? (I will try to drag everything to early of June to see the status of MCO first)